yes yes bla bla the Os are over.
shit i'm scared that my humans fuck up, cannot go anywhere. ARGH.
whatever, i'll force myself not to bother about it for the time being haha.
well. off to enjoy myself!
=))
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wah today was a very.. interesting day. lol.
with one paper left, i came home today, changed and went out. met nat for double-movie-marathon.
watched zathura. its REALLY good, contrary to what people think. except for the special effects and costumes. those looked very fake. but overall it was pretty good. the twist at the end, especially. haha.
after zathura, met peiying (nat's sis) then we watched exorcism of emily rose.
ok now i shall start ranting, read on at your own discretion.
the movie was. very good, in my opinion. to begin with, it was a true story. the court scenes were really captivating; i actually felt that i was present there. more importantly though. the things that emily went through.. affected me very badly.
i've seen an exorcism.. some people said it wasn't a possession, it was just that that friend of mine was 'overcome by the holy spirit'. if so, then why did they form a human barrier around him, with the pastor asking the spirit to leave? but it wasn't so bad.. the whole thing lasted about 10-15 minutes only.. and my friend wasn't really affected. so yeah. but imagine trying to get blessed with all that.. screaming. come to think of it. i don't even think he was screaming normally. dunno if he was screaming funny stuff or not. happened a few years ago, forgot the explicit details..
anyway. all these possession stuff. i am one who believes in such things, although i don't believe in christianity and stuff, i believe that all these evil stuff exists. and that all of us are vulnerable, some more than others.
emily's story is just ONE of the many many MANY possessions that occur all over the place. but i don't think all of them are of a severity of that level.
there are still things unknown to man, things that science cannot yet explain, as i saw from the movie. the doctors gave their testimonies, naming all the psychological ailments that could have been affecting emily. but then the last doctor.. he said something about knowing emily wasn't mad and all. he said he'd seen many mad people, and he knew emily wasn't mad.
so the question remains. was emily really possessed? i for one, believe that it was a true occurance. believe what you will, people. but i feel its better to believe than not to.
well. i shall sleep before 3 everyday.
and i've smelt other sudden scents besides burning stenches in the middle of the night.
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ah.
die la i think i retake Os next year lah.
rofl. i sure do like shit. think i'll end up in mass comm next year lah. sajc so hardcore one. haha. i hate studying man. oh well.
Os are almost over..
2 more papers.
shit la i remember how many more papers i also remember the stupid mat chief invigilator.
'0136 come up please. i want to speak to you'
'are you going to cut your hair? you know these are ministry guidelines?'
'yes i am going to cut.'
'ok go back'
-__- wtp??
my beautiful locks... nooo. aiyah. nvm i tmr go cut abit abit.. layer, rid myself of the tail.. hahaha. shit lahhs. nevermind nevermind, i got months to grow it all back.. heheh.
now that the end of Os are in sight.
i don't know what to do. lol. like i think i gonna earn money and find people go overseas to alot of countries or something haha.
but i need $ to buy a new baobei flutexx.
siiggh. oh well.
back to muggin for bio then....
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sia la.. nothing to do. its 315am. wtf lah. i got tuition in 9 hours. hmm. i wish... i wish i had more meaning to life. ah. i don't even know why i'm living. like you know. why? to finish education, get a job, raise a family.. then die? why not cut everything short, and go straight to the end? reduce problems also what. this world is screwed lol.
hmm. i'm looking forward to flute lessons. i wanna take grade 5 practical and theory by june next year.
thennn.. well really. i have no aims in life.. sometimes i feel everyone was born on earth to suffer. its a punishment. like you do something wrong in some greater place, then they sentence you to life on earth..
rofl. my weird ideas.
people should focus less on the task at hand and look at the big picture.
is what you're doing worth doing?
is life actually worth living?
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thanks for the concern people! i'm feeling loads better already. =)
slacked the day away. hahaha i don't know, now that i'm in the middle of it all, i don't feel the stress anymore. hmm. maybe i don't want to go jc so much.. i really don't want to go poly nor jc.
i want to do my
music.unfortunately the music instituitions in singapore aren't worth going for.
and its also unfortunate that
i still suck.oh well. to make up for it i've got tuition like 8 hours tomorrow. hehee. history and geog madness.. ladeedums.
it'll soon be over.
yayyy.
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as stated in the chatbox on the riiiight... ---->>
yes i'm sick.
(hooray. got story to tell at last!)
ok so on thursday morning. i woke up at 9. woke up burning. felt as though all my angst had surfaced like a phoenix's flame to consume me and change me to dust.....
yes it was that bad. i'm not lying.
okay i was.
yeah anyway, i got up at 9. so bloody weak i couldn't even move my fingers to reply the smses that arrived in the night. yes. couldn't even talk about walking. so after replying two smses, i ran outta energy. and fell asleep again. till like 12. smsed my mom, who was in taiwan, telling her my fever took a turn for the worst. i thought i had dengue, cause i couldn't eat a single morsel of food; felt like puking the moment food went into my stomach. and cause my fever was like those hot-cold-hot-cold kind. haha. but had no rash.. so yeah. mom called me to inspire me to get out of bed and drink some barley, call cab to go doc and stuff. lol. i felt like shit all the way. finally reached the clinic.....
to find it closed. %&#*%&#*%&#
i was on the VERGE OF DEATH. and they made me wait half an hour outside the goddamn doors. PLUS. THERE WERE PEOPLE INSIDE. THEY JUST DIDN'T WANT TO LET PEOPLE IN. NOT EVEN A DYING BOY WITH NO PARENTS IN SINGAPORE. yeah. heartless. *sniff ~>.<~
anyway. they opened at 2. my heart sang hallelujah. (looks at clock, its 2pm.) 'hello! what time is the doctor coming?'
'oh. around. 230?'
230 OMGWTFBBQ.
so i patiently waitied. thank god someone cared enough to call me to accompany me. hahaha. thank you. =))
FINALLY. doctor came at 230. at least he wasn't late. lol. yeah. i was first in line. so i went in....
'sorry for being late, you won't believe what i was doing.'
'oh? what were you doing?'
'catching snails.'
(WTF?!?!)'oh.. err okaaayyy.'
anyway i told him i had a fever, flu, bla bla. he touched my forehead and went 'wow, that's really hot!' then he took his stethescope thingy and listened to my back and he was like 'wah your back also hot!' i'm like.. 'yeah i'm hottt..' (no of course i didn't say that...)
anyway. cut e long story short. he got me to lie down, then he pulled down the top of my pants..
stuck into my ass....
a very sharp needle.
WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?! tsk. yes i received a flu jab.. on my arse.. knn doc.. tell me less pain than arm. the jab left me walking like a bloody duck lah. like just kena fuck in backside like that. (come to think of it. i DID get fucked in the ass.. just by a needle though. lol.)
yeah, i called a cab home too, too lazy to flag one down, though i was feeling better almost immediately. yeahh. when i got home i found myself hungry. ate like mad. then i took my medicine and went to sleep, after kor called from office to ask me how i was. woke up around 8? yeah. aunt came over. she's so mean lah. she smsed me, and here's how it went.
'heard you're sick. how's your fever? i'll come by later to check on you. want anything? ICECREAM?'
'ICE CREAM? SIAO AH. i'm sick with fever and you ask if i want ICE CREAM?! haha appreciate it, thanks but no thanks!'
'why? ice cream nothing wrong what... its cold... and you're hot! ;) see you tonight!'
omg that's my aunt for you LOL. yeahh.. so i wasted the day away. damn the fever. reduced my emaths marks by a grade at least. zz. can say bye bye to my a2 already.. =((
which brings me tooo... updates on the past few papers.
well for english.. its like either i a1 or f9 kinda thing? depends on whether my marker's a gay/les or not.. yeah.. i condemned homosexual marriages in my 'marriage' essay, which everyone wrote about. die ler. hahaha. i brought in my emo-ness about love and like, even brought in religion and how it supported marriage. if i did screw up, i think i can redeem myself about multi-racial marriages, which i wrote about later on, and my own view on marriage as well. i love my ending la. it goes something like....
'individually we can do our part to bring back the true meaning of marriage; the true meaning of the line "till death do us part"'
COOL RIGHTTT! =D
anyway, i hope i do well.
physics was easier than i hoped for. (i hopeed for a d7 at least, but i think ican use bio pull up to a2 at least, muahahah)
the 2 maths-es... paper 1 was also like ..wtpomg.. like i pwned paper 1 hard. paper 2 was harder though. lost a few marks, didn't know how to do a few. should be okay, but there goes my a2. hahaha. oh well. its like got 1 question about e house, must find total surface area OF THE WALL. zzz. i kua zhang. find TOTAL SURFACE AREA. then i couldn't tally my answer with the given one, gave it up. WTP LA. ITS LIKE MATHS PAPER, NOT ENGLISH PAPER!! %&#*%&#
okay, okay. i blame my own stupidity. =((
well well. made a new friend today, actually. upgraded her status as acquaintance to friend. hahahaha.
hong xueling, welcome to my life! =D
i wasn't feeling too good, but after all the laughter, i felt really much better. maybe laughter is the best medicine after all. haha. anyway. was happy to share my knowledge of history (however little..) with you. =)) was like revision anyway. aha yeah..
OKAY I'M DONE ranting. everything's back to normal, i actually have the energy to cough now, which i didn't have yesterday.
and mom's home!
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well. 3 papers down.. and a lot more to go.. i'm feeling so used up already. so empty.. people all keep saying jia you... my fire not burning how to add oil? =/
not to mention ss was fucked. so much for 'VENICE WON'T COME OUT SO WE WON'T WASTE TIME TEACHING IT TO YOU.' balls to you. _|_
yeah then you'll blame us for not studying everything else. wtf then you spot for fuck. zz.
for those who didn't notice, ss is also taking on a whole new style. the essay questions, we weren't told of any changes.. but check out the (b) questions. they all contain 'help or hindrance'. if you thought it was easier than past years' papers. think again, and think harder. not as simple as you think. anyway. i screwed up that paper badly without them having to change the question styles.
so much for 'merger, health, education, people and singapore's industrialisation.. SURE COME OUT ONE!' you see correctly or not. maybe you abit siao. that's why spot everything that DIDN'T COME OUT. yes. i studied all that shit except for industrialisation. screw it.
so tell me everyone.
have i been a help in your lives?
or a hindrance?
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as i speak, the seconds tick down to the biggest exam in my life thus far.
yes. 5 days to Os.
ON A BRIGHTER NOTE. EVERYTHING'S GONNA END IN 20 DAYS! =DDDD
shit la gotta get thru Os first. -_- i'm still quite unprepared.
gotta study my malayan history, 2 or 3 more chapters of my SS, geog. practice emaths.
speaking of which. thanks mike! (tho i know you won't be readin this anyway lol) mike's my senior in alumni. he's teaching me emaths for free, and its like i found out he gives tuition lah. so nice to gimme free tuition.. i now understand the basis of indices. yay!
i had tuition on tuesday for like 13 hours?! and i'm so freakin tired. haha. yawn yawn YAWN. not to mention i have tuition for 10 hours tomorrow. haha. screw it lah. =(
here it comessss.
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