music has charms to soothe a savage beast.: July 2006

i'm not feeling very happy.

i haven't been feeling very happy for a long time.

oh well.

fuck life.

i wish there were easier ways out.

teh-flautist. ewenn @ 12:20 AM

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hello world.

this is sin.

i'm supposed to be running around my estate now.

but i think i cannot. because. because i'm dead tired. no. just dead. well. almost lah. everything's due, for the FINAL time. yes. and my presentation is on. 11th august.

oh, written paper's on 12th. hooray.

media in society paper is on 21st. i think. yeah it should be.

lets see what's left to be done.

act for mona's and sabrina's groups, which'll be done over the whole week.

pray for locvid written paper, which'll be on next monday.

practice riverdance.

practice riverdance more.

study for final papers.

SIGHHHH I DON'T KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO DO. and i don't want to think about it. =/

oh yes, not to mention, i have grade 5 practical on 30th august. and i haven't started practicing my minor and dominant scales. i am so dead. DEAD.

&$*#&%#

anyhow, i'll try to blog frequently.

its not nice to leave my darling readers in the dark, eh?

stop saying sorry, you've done me no wrong.

teh-flautist. ewenn @ 6:36 PM

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a sad day calls for a sad post.

i don't want to say anything. so.

in the coffin i lay.

in the coffin i lay
at the funeral wake.
a result of the choices i made.

in the coffin i lay
around me, people cry,
saying their final goodbyes.

in the coffin i lay
into nothingness,
with open eyes i gaze.

in the coffin i lay
my body, an empty shell
my soul, forever damned.

in the coffin i lay
into fire my body goes,
into ash i become.

in the coffin i no longer lay
belonging to none
forevermore.

note to all: i think this is a cool way to leave if i were to commit suicide. kinda says how i want to depart.

but hey. i'm not going to die. not tonight.

teh-flautist. ewenn @ 9:34 PM

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no this isn't tim. i'm his brother from another mother. yea bitch, and i have his password.. somewhere.. yeah.

i actually had to ask for his password again just now.

tim's being emo (so what's new, lol) and was singing like he was going to commit suicide after his rendition of coldplay's 'the scientist'. oh did i tell you what denise did on friday, and what she was wearing? she was being quite the dumb person, but alas, nothing much changed over time, right tim? (and ben?)

seriously denise, you're still as stupid as ever. HAHEOAUEHOAHEOUAHEOAUE you mean bitch i just read what you said about us after my classmate told me. LOL damn spastic please. anyway, i think tim and denise left out another funny part which i remember.

adam: do you read bryanboy?
denise: what? is that a book?
adam & tim: AHAHHAOEUHAEOUHAEOUHAOEH -points at chest as well and starts laughing even more- haoaeuhaouehaoeuhae.

okay friday night was basically all about HER chest, thus her last sentence on her blog. LOLOL! it's damn stupid. serious. she being so spastic at the tunnel on the way to zouk. hahaha oh well what to do, first timer.

and fuck, i forgot to bring a camera. -.- and ben was already out and was LATE and denise was fucking early which was a miracle and tim and i were late because we thought she'd be late and we were late tgt becos i was at his place. (attention: there's in total 7 ANDs in this paragraph, or did i really fail maths? did i count wrongly? no psst, i didnt really fail maths, in fact i aced it with an a2, ahhaa)

eh i'm bored already. hungry, going down to thai express @ holland v for lunch. wished tim would join us. ):

mm, publicity. :x

visit pseudopath.org NOW!

teh-flautist. ewenn @ 11:49 AM

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RIGHT. so what did i do on friday and saturday?

quite a lot, actually. okay.

FRIDAY!

i had lunch with mom and dad at that mad jack's place, along bukit timah road. its near the turn-in to st margs. the food's substandard. worth the price we paid i guess.

rushed to school after lunch, met mona and ling going down the hill to their locvid class. decided i had time to spare, walked and chatted. the 105-ers were sitting outside the locvid place. so i wenta talk for a bit. know you won't read this, but thanks raewyn for the lolly! =)

went up to level 3 to meet ying, peter and jabez for web graphics project consultation. blah ying is amazing, did a really good job (ignore the fact that we have a D at the moment pls). my logo looks like the Schutzstaffel
logo. lol. mr michele said so too. oh well. =( i like it. hahahah. oh well.

after that we hung out at the atrium. YING FRENCHPLAITED MY HAIR! it was nice. thank you ying. i have pictures i think. OH YES I DO.

NICE RIGHT.

hahahahah.

yes. after plaiting, i went to convention underpass to find russell, but i found jun and her friend, debra, there instead! talked talked talked to them, then deb left and then talked to jun till 5,then i had to go for training.

training. ah. a lot of ball handling, which is good for me! i still can't pass for nuts, but i'm trying hard. kingston rocks, he always encourages me. hahah.

YES after training, i met adam at KAP macs, then went home.

adam came too.

to dump his stuff and mine.

BECAUSE WE WENT TO ZOUK. =DD

left late, met denise in town after 11pm.

k. MUST tell everyone this.

i was holding a mineral water bottle with vodka in it. i offered it to denise. she thought it was water so she took a WHOLE GULP OF IT. THEN SHE GAGGED AND WE STARTED LAUGHING LIKE FUCK.

LOLOLOLOL @ DENISE.

why'd you spit it out!?? should have just swallowed it lah! &%*#

so ROFL lah.

we went into zouk, then checked out zouk and phuture before going out to meet ben.

we <3 house.

really.

danced like mad. LIKE MAD.

because i was really high on drinks. highness makes you dance better. really. hahah.

danced all night long, then we went to that prata palace shit place for supper.

'NO PLAIN, ONLY YEGG'

LOL indian accent waiter guy. weirdo. no plain prata but got EGG. so HOW to make egg prata with no plain? we didn't want to ask because it would mean conversing more with him, which was pretty hard as it is.

with the exception of ben, who had chicken murtabak, we ate 2 YEGG pratas each.

then i fell asleep and they took my stuff and went to the playground beside to slack. i woke up and found them gone, i thought they'd be nearby but i didn't see em at the playground. i got up and streched, then i saw them. lol.

cabbed home, died on my bed. adam stayed up to play with my watercolour pens. then he went off to ambassador duty at peirce sec. maddoess. so little sleep. lol.

anyway, on saturday, i got up at 11 to get to school for CATS filming. yes. we have no product, so we wanted to film an ad.

for a water bottle hat.

DON'T ASK.

=)

went to PS to meet kc and bry, MRT-ed to school. on the way, at NEL there.

we see a guy in a wheel chair.

kc: siala he got racing car.
bry+me: LOL WTF?!

we laughed like shit then kc was like 'WHAT'S WRONG? GOOD WHAT, HE DON'T NEED TO WALK!'

to which my reply was, 'LOL MAYBE BECAUSE HE CANNOT'

ROFLROFLOLOL.

in the MRT.

'ding-dong'

bry: OH NOES!

'LITTLE INDIA STATION'

ROFLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. laugh like fuck.

alumni was pretty okay lah. we sightread one more new piece, moulin rouge. whole band kena scolding again, cause all cannot play. and all don't want to practice. blah. concert's in a few weeks. 3 weeks.

OH YES. SPEAKING OF CONCERT, I HAVE 3 TICKETS TO 6TH AUGUST CONCERT FOR SALE. WHO WANTS? PLEASE ASK ME. =D

that's about it. got home and rotted.

i only hope that
you're what you seem to be.

teh-flautist. ewenn @ 3:06 AM

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a bruised heart
exploited of late.

who will, who can
give me some reprive?

it hurts, it hurts
when i think about it.

so i drown myself
with more than i can handle.

whoever will, whoever can

please save me.

teh-flautist. ewenn @ 3:02 AM

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hello! long time no post again. no excuse lah. just no mood.

i think i'm getting used to the level of stress we're getting. acceptance. resignation to fate. aiyah one of those lah. anyway. quite a busy week. about to plunge headfirst in.

weekend's burnt this week. got CATS filming to do, acting for another group.. alumni, and beach outing.

and monday, the interview in CD form is due. so i'm going to do it later, because tomorrow night i'll be going zouk!

howhowhow i'm already so broke. lol.

oh well.

anyway i've been playing CALL OF DUTY2. i bought the game on tuesday. i completed it YESTERDAY. in. uh. 12 hours or less.

yah. 12 hours, go do the maths.

its really really fun and absorbing. especially when you have headphones on. full volume.

'KRAUTS, LEFT WINDOW!'

'DIE FRITZ!'

'BETTER YOU IN HELL THAN ME!'

and there are really good war quotes too. the game has the ability to make you feel moved when you win and stuff. its like, hemmed in on all sides, about to lose, you hear the roar of plane engines overhead, then you see the whole fleet of RAF fighters come. then you feel damn good.

'who're they, sarge?'
'guardian angels, private. guardian angels.'

things like that. then there's a OST too. YES OST. orchestral stuff. VERY GOOD.

oh well. perhaps OBLIVION next.

back to schoolwork for now.

and so my heart flutters to you.

teh-flautist. ewenn @ 9:44 PM

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morning world!

i just got home from russell's place. wonderful party. quite.

let's see what happened yesterday!

after blogging i went to - yes you people better believe it - JOG.

four freaking KM.

afterwhich i went to bathe. then helped dad with repairing the cupboard in my room.

we went out for dinner, mom, dad, kor and i.

as a family. a complete one. after...

many months. 5 perhaps?

happy. =)

ANYWAY. we had dinner at a place called auntie kim's. its along thomson road. its a korean food place. kind of have family gatherings there. BEEF BULGOGI. SEAFOOD EGG PANCAKE. GINSENG CHICKEN. BEEF/VEGE SOUP. AND LOTS OF OTHER MAIN DISHES. daddy ordered some rice wine sake thingy to go with it. mom and bro almost spat it out. i think it tasted pretty good. quite sweet and stuff. lol. like weird vodka? hmm. yeah anyway i took the remains of the bottle with me to russell's place..

AT HIS PLACE. when mom and dad dropped me off, tabbie, lexie and mich were bbqing for russ's friends. lol long story. eventually we went in and talked to russ's relatives and mom in the kitchen. nice people.. especially russ's mom! thanks for everything auntie! i stuffed myself with cake and a lot of chocolate fondue. so much for the 4km run. after that, adam taught me how to play stress, that card game. and we explored the feng shui in russ's house. apparently the place where adam was sitting at had good feng shui at first, then no more lolol. was so interesting. hahah.

then adam and i listened to love songs.

k that sounded wrong but yah we did.

and sarah brightman put us to sleep.

not TOGETHER, of course.

my brother from a different mother.

my <3s

=)

anyway, i woke up around 930, left for home around 10, got home at 1030.

and here i am.

BYE.

teh-flautist. ewenn @ 11:13 AM

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hmm, hello all.

i haven't been blogging for ages. like 2 weeks?

lotsa stuff's been happening. i don't remember what though. hmm.

mostly projects. and me, perhaps with hate as third party.

lets see. oh yes i interviewed justin ang and vernon a last sunday. the perfect 10 morning muttons. interesting experience, really. because they were doing an on-site job beforehand.

i learnt that being a DJ lets you slack a lot. i can't say much here, ask me if you wanna know more. hahah.

anyway they're really radio personalities.

they don't behave like they do in real life. in fact. they talked a lot of sense. gave us a 22 minute interview.

which i just finished the transcript of, only yesterday. damned thing took me more than 4 hours to do. hmm about 3 lah.

besides that.. nothing much, got my marketing test back. a surprising 58. i expected to fail hmm..

oh and last night was st andrew's school military band's concert. i... did their emceeing for them.

threw a lot of face away.

i shall never emcee again. rofl.

OH. and it was the seventh night of july yesterday. 'nuff said.

today's russell's birthday. happy birthday dude!

OH AND DADDY'S BACK FROM DUBAIIIII YAYYY.

we're going for dinner in an hour or so.

i'm going to do that 4km run now. see all soon!

teh-flautist. ewenn @ 5:05 PM

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