music has charms to soothe a savage beast.

19 dec 06

2006-12-19T03:27:00.000+08:00

blurry-eyed, light-headed, ~~oily-faced.~~

no fuck. i washed my face.

3.30am.

after hours of staring into scopes and waiting for someone to jump into it, i'm back in my room, facing my glaring laptop. i think my eyes are about to burn up or something.

i'm still sick; doctor said i don't have much of a flu. he said i have bronchitis. yes, wtf is right!

the new medicine he gave hardly helps either, but i think its strong stuff, because i'm only supposed to take it twice a day.

oh well.

maybe.

it is a good time to start doing some work.

i have to lah, before sleeping.

oh and i guess my wound isn't that bad anymore.

i wonder how so much blood came out of that shithole.

anyhow.

work.

02 jan 07

2007-01-02T22:13:00.000+08:00

so its 2006.

i had a hot beginning to it.

literally.

caught something that was burning. the melting plastic stuck onto my hand.

think wax.

then think 10 times hotter.

yes.

anyway.

looks quite cool, doesn't it?

ha.

school starts tomorrow.

the last stretch. i don't look forward to it.

its time to rush all the work i've been neglecting for the last few days.

horrible horrible. work is not fun to do, especially when you're tired and grumpy.

you have me, yes you do.

but who do i have?

8 jan 07

2007-01-08T02:41:00.000+08:00

oh man oh man... some updates.

oh yes.. it is healing.

i think.

oh well!

ah. lets see. the breath before the dive, i have finished taking.

i'm about to delve deep. down to hell.

i don't care, as long as you're by my side.

22 jan 07

2007-01-22T02:24:00.000+08:00

yeah, another one.

ouch.

abrasion, rather. enough of blood. lol.

oh well.

that's the outcome of waiting.

i don't think it'd hurt so much if i didn't feel so unappreciated.

LLLLOL

2007-08-05T23:39:00.000+08:00

LLLOL

27 march 08

2008-03-27T03:56:00.005+08:00

digging around in your old PC can turn up wonderful things.

funny how fast present becomes past.

okay, not-so-funny actually.

but the pictures are funny. hahahahh.

indeed, the best years of my life.

2008-11-27T17:54:00.002+08:00

sure, not to you.

but to me, yes.

2008-11-27T11:51:00.002+08:00

if its impossible to foster hate overnight...

zomg, then it means masquerade time!

really, now.

it's the reason why we can't have nice things!

take my hand, lead me out to the dance floor,

in a spinning, spinning, spinning

masquerade of pretense.

17 nov08

2008-11-17T01:12:00.001+08:00

memories.

wish i didn't fuck up.

regretting, as usual.

2008-11-15T13:25:00.002+08:00

"hey baby wanna go out?"

"ah i can't.. my bf thinks i'm sleeping, he might want to come over later"

"aw damn, i miss you"

"i miss you too."

"when can i see you again?"

"soon i hope."

we'd all like to think the sun revolves around us.

2008-11-06T14:23:00.001+08:00

no wall is infallible,
no stone is unbreakable,
no man is immortal.

i'm not going to turn back and retrace my steps anymore.

03 sept 08

2008-09-03T18:26:00.002+08:00

days turn to nights.
nights turn to days.

that's the lifestyle i lead at the moment. (or rather, CAN lead)

anyhoo.

picked up WoW-ing again, this time in a private server.

click here if interested.

not much else, 'cept i don't have to go back to poly ever again, at least not until i graduate.

for now, i don't have anything to say about completing poly life etc., but i might reflect on it one day if i feel like it.

i've got internship/attachment starting in one and a half week's time. it'll be with a public relations agency.

Flame Communications

for now though, i'm content with being a ball of mush in my new house.

oh yes, i've moved to a new place. 160 Springside Ave, for anyone who wants to know lol.

hmm. i might consider taking pictures of the house and putting them up.

i just might..

2008-06-06T01:06:00.001+08:00

your irresponsibility is starting to get to me. you don't know where to draw the line between friendship and work.

it's your responsibility to fulfil the specified requirements.

it's also your responsibility to do work.

it takes(took) two hands to clap, but i really understand what the other party went through now.

2008-05-26T02:51:00.001+08:00

note to self: trust naught but me.

2008-05-20T09:07:00.001+08:00

school is mad. really is. =(
not much sleep, lots of work.
anyways. just testing this cool new widget that lets me blog. pretty cool.

school school school.

sigh bai!

08 march 08

2008-03-08T06:04:00.002+08:00

does adulthood bring with it pointless arguments?

is it about whole fault is it, so that if everything ends, your hands are clean?

is it?

do the 'sorries' bring closure?

well. i'm sorry then.

15 dec 07

2007-12-15T19:14:00.001+08:00

Christmas is coming again.

the way the last 2 years passed by is freakish.

i'll be 20 in 6 months.

what the hell? 20?

i feel like the time i've spent living doesn't equate to 20 years.

horrible, how time passes.

anyway. yeah. Christmas is just round the corner. (again)

-insert christmas tree picture-

phone battery's low, can't get a nice picture of the tree downstairs.

its our last Christmas in this house.

i hate having no cash to get presents, i swear it sucks when people give stuff to you and you don't have any means to get stuff for them.

saving money is hard as hell.

what is the price of freedom?

lala

2007-11-26T01:25:00.000+08:00

that which lives will die, one way or another.

yep like how this place is dead.

but anyway. school has been a bitch. all the slacking doesn't make me want to do any work at all. and that's bad. very very bad.

not to mention, i'm in dire need of cash. desperate.

i can somehow spend $100 in 2 days. normal spending. which is.. not very normal.

well. it looks like back to the flute grind, since internships don't pay much. hmm.. ah i'll decide when the holidays come.

assignments are due next week. and the week after.

the grind begins.

2007-10-31T10:25:00.000+08:00

for you, immaturity comes with age.

2007-10-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

'if you love her, let her go.'

lol.

yeah, sooner or later i will do just that i think.

maybe i could become a toy on the shelf or something.

i think all 'true love' quotes were made during honeymoon periods.

20 oct 07

2007-10-20T21:53:00.001+08:00

the gang surprised me on tuesday after lectures with a little belated birthday celebration at walla walla's.

they also got me a very nice polo tee from ben sherman's. must have torn a big hole in their pockets.

just so you know, you guys made me a lot happier than i have been in the previous weeks .

couldn't stop smiling that night.

thank you thank you thank you so much, is all i can say, because you guys render(ed) me speechless. =))

2007-10-10T08:39:00.000+08:00

i sure hope i can keep up living a life of lies with you.

03 oct 07

2007-10-03T00:40:00.001+08:00

i think i'll just start a secret blog to say all the stuff i want to say but can't say here.

well, at least not while everything from my msn nick to my blogposts are fucking scrutinized.

2007-09-04T16:32:00.000+08:00

a total lack of brain matter.

feeling the strain from it.

not good at all.

08 sept 07

2007-09-08T06:55:00.000+08:00

and it wears me out, it wears me out

i'm a tad bit slow, i admit.

but radiohead is a new love.

i'm about to go to bed.

yeah, when my world starts to lighten up and life starts to stir.

i run, i hide

under the covers, till its night.

i've been interacting with almost no one at all.

my brain ~~will rot soon~~ is rotting.

oh! its raining. how nice.

goodnight world.

better go before the gloom stops.